Let It Rock!

I see your dirty face.
High behind your collar.
What is done in vain.
Truth is hard to swallow.
So you pray to God.
Justify the way you live a lie, live a lie, live a lie.
And you take your time.
And you do your crime.
Well you made your bed.
I’m in mine.

Now the son’s discrashed.
He, who knew his father.
When he cursed his name.
Turned, and chased the dollar.
But it broke his heart.
So he stuck his middle finger.
To the world!
To the world!
To the world!
And you take your time.
And you stand in line.
Well you’ll get what’s yours.
I got mine.

Because when I arrive.
I bring the fire.
Make you come alive.
I can take you higher.
What is this, forgot?
I must now remind you.
Let It Rock.
Let It Rock.
Let It Rock.

Random-ness.

One fine yet freaking day at college! Just look at 'em! What the crap. :P

From left to right: Vyonne, Amelia, Carmen, CK, Pawwen, Jeffrey, Rino (partly blocked) & Candy.

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My "creation" xD

No surprising.

After all these while,
finally I could get it through.

After what we went through,
it's so much easier now to see the reason in between.

Still, it hurts when time's gonna heal.
But yet, it felt so good to be able to let it go now.

I want you to know,
you couldn't have loved me better.

And I want you to know too,
that it doesn't matter in the end.

There just simply mean no more moving on for me and you.
So, I'm already gone.

In fact, you don't need me to be in your life.
I'm just a game to you. Farewell.

Oh man, I think I've got a cold.

Went back home with my body all wet, thanks to the heavy rain.

Now I'm sneezing and shivering like mad, but I've taken 2 tablets of Panadol so I should be alright.

I'll be okay, I guess.

No big deal.

Thanks for the Panadols, Jesse. LOL :P
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It's been the longest winter without you.
I didn't know where to turn to.
See, somehow I can't forget you.
After all that we've been through.

Going, coming.
Thought I heard a knock?
Who's there? No one.
Thinking that I deserved it.
Now I realized that I really didn't know.
If you didn't notice, you mean everything.
Quickly, I'm learning to love again.
All that I know is I'mma be okay.

I couldn't turn on the TV,
without something there to remind me.
Was it all that easy,
to just put aside your feelings?

If I'm dreaming, don't wanna laugh.
Hurt my feelings, but that's the path.
I'll believe in,
and I know time will heal it.

If you didn't notice babe,
you mean everything.

Thought I couldn't live without you,
it's gonna hurt when it heals too.
It'll all get better in time.
Even though I really loved you,
I'm gonna smile 'cause I deserved to.
It'll all get better in time.

Since there's no more you and me,
It's time I let you go, fully.
So I can be free,
and live my life how it should be.
No matter how hard it is,
I'll be fine without you.

Yes, I will.

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Come with me, stay the night.
You say the words but girl, it don't feel right.
Because to you, it's just a game.

So let me on down.
Because time has made me strong.
I'm starting to move on,
and your chance has come and gone.

You say you dream of my face.
But you don't like me.
You just like the chase.
To be real, it doesn't matter anyway.

I was young, and in love.
I gave you everything but, it wasn't enough.

Go find someone else.
In lettin' you go, I'm loving myself.
I can love with all of my heart, babe.
I know I have so much to give.
With a player like you, I don't have a prayer.
That's the way to live.

I'm gonna say this now.

It's just too little too late.
A little too wrong.
And I can't wait.
Girl, you know all the right things to say.

结束不是我要的结果，

但也许已是唯一结果。

You're everything I thought you never were.
And nothing like I thought you could have been.
But still, you live inside of me.
So tell me how is that?
You're the only one I wish I could forget.
The only one I love to not forgive.
And though you break my heart, you're the only one.
And though there are times when I hate you,
'cause I can't erase the times that you hurt me and put tears on my face.
And even now, while I hate you, it pains me to say,
I know I'll be there at the end of the day.

I don't wanna be without you, babe.
I don't want a broken heart.
Don't wanna take a breath without you, babe.
I don't wanna play that part.
I know that I love you, but let me just say.
I don't wanna love you in no kind of way, no no.
I don't want a broken heart.
I don't wanna play the broken-hearted boy.
No, no, no broken-hearted boy.

There's something that I feel I need to say.
But up til' now I've always been afraid that,
you would never come around.
And still I wanna put this out.

You say you've got the most respect for me.
But, sometimes I feel you're not deserving of me.
And still, you're in my heart. But you're the only one.
And yes, there are times when I hate you, but I don't complain,
'cause I've been afraid that you would walk away.
Oh, but now I don't hate you I'm happy to say,
That I will be there at the end of the day.

Now I'm at a place I thought I'd be, ooh.
I'm living in a world that's no more about you and me, yeah.
Gotta be afraid, my broken heart is not free to,
spread my wings and fly away, away with you...
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Though I know that it's already over,
I know that there's nothing much left to say,

Though I hurt you so bad,
and I did things that I could not take back,

Though I know this thing is not going to work out,
and you will never forgive me for everything,

but why do I still think of you?
Why do I still dream of you?

Tell me how do I get over you?
Tell me how do I get you out of my mind?
Tell me how do I forget about you?
Tell me how do I stop mesmerizing our sweet memories?

Tell me the ways to get this still-feelings away?
Tell me the ways to feel like I'm single?
Tell me the ways to do better without you?
Tell me the ways to stop missing you?

Why is this happening..?

I'm strong.

I can't get it back, but I don't want it back.
Never been a dumb dude, no I'm not dense.
I just had a slight lack of common sense.

I'm thinking one girl, but love for me?
She didn't have any.
She was my night time, thought I was her star.

Guess I was wrong but see I'm strong.
Won't take long for me to move on.
Only gonna play the fool one time.

Tried to settle down and look what I get.
Thought it was my time but I guess not yet.
Just not knowing, truly not knowing.

I thought I was inviting her into my heart. But I was wrong.

The mistakes I made is clear,
we never should've been together.
That's the reason you're not here.
I know that I can do much better.

Not a single salty tear,
not a feeling in my chest.
Baby I'm feeling no stress.
I'm too fly to be depressed.

Trust me when I say that I'll be okay. Go on, girl.

After all, it was a love game. Just like you said before.

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http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=R8jZz_Na6Go&feature=related

I can neither run nor hide.
What? Why?
I don't know. I have no idea.
Strange eh? Funny eh?

Wish that I could get you over with, soon enough.
Take it or make it halfway back, like you did to me.
It's never gonna be one of those happy ones. Nope.
Could this thing turn around? Is it possible?

At one time, I don't really wish that I want it to happen.
But then again, I don't know.
At another time, I think it's no longer possible to.
Because, it's just not possible.

Simple as that.

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Dear Pooi Kee, you have to be strong.
I'm really sorry for what you've lost. I don't know what else can I do.
Yes, I know exactly what it feels like when you lost someone who is so close.
Her time has come. It is by God's decision that she has to go. Now.

Not only me, all of us are.
I know this is really hard for you to go through.
But do know that, you'll still have your caring parents beside you.
Plus, we as good friends will always be by your side.

No matter how, I'm always here for you.
If you ever need an ear to talk to or a shoulder to cry on,
know that I'm always one phone call away.
Pooi Kee, we can't pick you up unless you can help yourself.

May God bless you abundantly and shine your way throughout the rest of your life.
Amen.

For all these while.

I'm nowhere near perfect.

I eat when I'm bored.
I drink when I'm frustrated.
I sleep when I'm hurt.

When I'm so much in love with someone, I give my all.
I swear to God, that I'll try my very best to.

Know that I'll always be vulnerable in actually believing lies.
I just hope that one day in the future, that I don't have to fake my smiles anymore.

I live by quotes that explains exactly what I'm going through in these while.
And do know that, I make excuses for everything I felt uncomfortable with.

I have best hangout buddies and also, worst enemies.
I have drama and also, memories that are supposed to be kept in deep silence.

It's everything that I need, and the things that you have to know.
Live it, love it and eventually learn from it.

Go ahead, just leave.
Can't hold you now, you're free.
You take all these things, if they mean so much to you.

You're out of control, I know that.
Girl, you're stone cold but you said you ain't so.
I ended up finding all of these from my boys.
You already knew that I'm not attached to material.
So did I deserve to be left and hurt?

What else that I've done but give love to you?
I'm nothing but confused, as I look at you everytime.
From head to feet, all that's not me. Not anymore.
You think material's the reason that I came.
If I had nothing at all, would you want me to stay?

No. So I gotta let you know now.

I've learn from my mistakes, and know that things will never be the same again anymore. That's facts. That's life. There's no runnin' away from it. For all these while, the ghost of you still haunts me. I'd give it all up, but I'm takin' back my love.

Party in the club! xD

All of "Venus Girls" and the supervisors of Calleigh, please take note. It's party time! We are going to have a cocktail party, 2 more weeks from now. Our beloved and all-time favorite lecturers, both Mr. Teh and Christian Ng will be attending. So please make yourself available. Hui Yi and Jonah of Calleigh are still the organizers, and I'm just doing my part in informing. Hope to see all of you guys soon! :D

Any further enquiries, please contact any one of them either by calls or via email. Thank you!

No boundaries.

Guys, guess what? Victor's coming back again!

Oh my God, this is just too good to be true! I know, it's unbelievable right? But the truth is that he gave us hope. I'm as grateful and joyful as hell right here, right now!

It proves that the information I got with his parents are useful after all. Thank God. We are always praying for his revival every single day and finally it paid off.

I'll pay him a visit, maybe tomorrow morning or afternoon. Who's with me? Me, Jesse, Phoebe, and Rainnie confirmed. The rest? Please contact me as soon as possible, thanks.

And I'm glad that my own condition is getting better now. I seemed to be doing great now, despite all the faintings and puking of blood. Double happiness! Thank you so much.

I can't believe either, that I'm a normal, healthy college dude again. No more sickness, no more nothing. I could live my life to the fullest now.

Yeah, there's breakup months ago but what can I do? It's already fated, and it's already over. There's no turning back now, and there's not even a single way to turn this thing around anymore. All I can do is that, I pray for your happiness with your new guy and as well I pray for my own health and success along all the coming years to go.

JESUS I LOVE YOU.

I used to be tripping over, missing you but I'm not anymore. Because I'm not coming back, I'm closing the door. I got the picture phone baby, and the pictures of you had already long gone. Could'nt stand to see your smile every time from now onwards.

I'll do what I can, to not put your business in the streets. Didn't want to know where you've been and what you've done. Because I can no longer be.

You've found somebody else who does it better than I am. Now that you've got a new direction, and from now on I won't bother you anymore. Because I can no longer be.

Alright, few hours more and my performance is on :). CK, if you are seeing this. Wish me luck bro!

Kinda nervous and at the same time, excited!

Wicked scary + freaking beautiful.

Been on medication for like almost one week now, and it seems to be working pretty damn good. I mean, my freaking condition. Yeah, all the time. I am that kind of a weird guy after all, ain't I? It's gettin' better and better now, thank God.

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Pretty sure I know it's not the right thing to do, and so are you. But I could'nt stop falling for you :\. I bet you would feel the same way, too. Are we just normal friends or is there more that we can be when we are hanging out with the rest and spending time together, girl? I wish there were, but no. I can't do it. It's totally against all things natural. It's against the "rules" and the "law".

The way you looked at me straight down with your electrifying, sparkling yet adorable eyes just made me nothin' but hypnotizing and truly, stunned. Hell, I'm not gonna forget the times that all of us have been being together for this whole while and not saying the things that we wanted. You are truly, absolutely amazing. Time will prove everything, and anything that we could had ever wanted, perhaps. ;P

This feeling is so mutual right here, right now. I can't fight it but only to enjoy the process. Yet at the same time, I like just the way it is. In fact, I'm lovin' it! ;D