I can neither run nor hide.
What? Why?
I don't know. I have no idea.
Strange eh? Funny eh?

Wish that I could get you over with, soon enough.
Take it or make it halfway back, like you did to me.
It's never gonna be one of those happy ones. Nope.
Could this thing turn around? Is it possible?

At one time, I don't really wish that I want it to happen.
But then again, I don't know.
At another time, I think it's no longer possible to.
Because, it's just not possible.

Simple as that.

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Dear Pooi Kee, you have to be strong.
I'm really sorry for what you've lost. I don't know what else can I do.
Yes, I know exactly what it feels like when you lost someone who is so close.
Her time has come. It is by God's decision that she has to go. Now.

Not only me, all of us are.
I know this is really hard for you to go through.
But do know that, you'll still have your caring parents beside you.
Plus, we as good friends will always be by your side.

No matter how, I'm always here for you.
If you ever need an ear to talk to or a shoulder to cry on,
know that I'm always one phone call away.
Pooi Kee, we can't pick you up unless you can help yourself.

May God bless you abundantly and shine your way throughout the rest of your life.
Amen.

For all these while.

I'm nowhere near perfect.

I eat when I'm bored.
I drink when I'm frustrated.
I sleep when I'm hurt.

When I'm so much in love with someone, I give my all.
I swear to God, that I'll try my very best to.

Know that I'll always be vulnerable in actually believing lies.
I just hope that one day in the future, that I don't have to fake my smiles anymore.

I live by quotes that explains exactly what I'm going through in these while.
And do know that, I make excuses for everything I felt uncomfortable with.

I have best hangout buddies and also, worst enemies.
I have drama and also, memories that are supposed to be kept in deep silence.

It's everything that I need, and the things that you have to know.
Live it, love it and eventually learn from it.

Go ahead, just leave.
Can't hold you now, you're free.
You take all these things, if they mean so much to you.

You're out of control, I know that.
Girl, you're stone cold but you said you ain't so.
I ended up finding all of these from my boys.
You already knew that I'm not attached to material.
So did I deserve to be left and hurt?

What else that I've done but give love to you?
I'm nothing but confused, as I look at you everytime.
From head to feet, all that's not me. Not anymore.
You think material's the reason that I came.
If I had nothing at all, would you want me to stay?

No. So I gotta let you know now.

I've learn from my mistakes, and know that things will never be the same again anymore. That's facts. That's life. There's no runnin' away from it. For all these while, the ghost of you still haunts me. I'd give it all up, but I'm takin' back my love.

Party in the club! xD

All of "Venus Girls" and the supervisors of Calleigh, please take note. It's party time! We are going to have a cocktail party, 2 more weeks from now. Our beloved and all-time favorite lecturers, both Mr. Teh and Christian Ng will be attending. So please make yourself available. Hui Yi and Jonah of Calleigh are still the organizers, and I'm just doing my part in informing. Hope to see all of you guys soon! :D

Any further enquiries, please contact any one of them either by calls or via email. Thank you!

No boundaries.

Guys, guess what? Victor's coming back again!

Oh my God, this is just too good to be true! I know, it's unbelievable right? But the truth is that he gave us hope. I'm as grateful and joyful as hell right here, right now!

It proves that the information I got with his parents are useful after all. Thank God. We are always praying for his revival every single day and finally it paid off.

I'll pay him a visit, maybe tomorrow morning or afternoon. Who's with me? Me, Jesse, Phoebe, and Rainnie confirmed. The rest? Please contact me as soon as possible, thanks.

And I'm glad that my own condition is getting better now. I seemed to be doing great now, despite all the faintings and puking of blood. Double happiness! Thank you so much.

I can't believe either, that I'm a normal, healthy college dude again. No more sickness, no more nothing. I could live my life to the fullest now.

Yeah, there's breakup months ago but what can I do? It's already fated, and it's already over. There's no turning back now, and there's not even a single way to turn this thing around anymore. All I can do is that, I pray for your happiness with your new guy and as well I pray for my own health and success along all the coming years to go.

JESUS I LOVE YOU.

I used to be tripping over, missing you but I'm not anymore. Because I'm not coming back, I'm closing the door. I got the picture phone baby, and the pictures of you had already long gone. Could'nt stand to see your smile every time from now onwards.

I'll do what I can, to not put your business in the streets. Didn't want to know where you've been and what you've done. Because I can no longer be.

You've found somebody else who does it better than I am. Now that you've got a new direction, and from now on I won't bother you anymore. Because I can no longer be.

Alright, few hours more and my performance is on :). CK, if you are seeing this. Wish me luck bro!

Kinda nervous and at the same time, excited!

Wicked scary + freaking beautiful.

Been on medication for like almost one week now, and it seems to be working pretty damn good. I mean, my freaking condition. Yeah, all the time. I am that kind of a weird guy after all, ain't I? It's gettin' better and better now, thank God.

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Pretty sure I know it's not the right thing to do, and so are you. But I could'nt stop falling for you :\. I bet you would feel the same way, too. Are we just normal friends or is there more that we can be when we are hanging out with the rest and spending time together, girl? I wish there were, but no. I can't do it. It's totally against all things natural. It's against the "rules" and the "law".

The way you looked at me straight down with your electrifying, sparkling yet adorable eyes just made me nothin' but hypnotizing and truly, stunned. Hell, I'm not gonna forget the times that all of us have been being together for this whole while and not saying the things that we wanted. You are truly, absolutely amazing. Time will prove everything, and anything that we could had ever wanted, perhaps. ;P

This feeling is so mutual right here, right now. I can't fight it but only to enjoy the process. Yet at the same time, I like just the way it is. In fact, I'm lovin' it! ;D