Sometimes the pain is excruciating. But what can I do. I've come too far to stop now. Gotta keep movin' until I reach the time of my life.

I ain't nobody's "quickie". Don't fuck with me. You have feelings, so am I. And I believe everyone has their own level of patience. So be cool and be nice. Don't you try going beyond my limit or else you'll suffer the consequences.

Thanks truckloads to Janice, Derek and Miki for sharing this. You guys definitely made my day. Love y'all.

女生应该体谅男人的13件事

1：不要要求他太多，不要嫌他陪你的时间不够，如果你想将来与他执手偕老，就不要在乎现在的朝朝暮暮。细水长流是的爱情才是最真的。

2：不要嫌他唠叨，因为一个男生对一个女生唠叨，那说明他真得很在乎你，当他忙的时候尽量不去打扰他。

3：当他在msn上赶你下线的时候，要立即下线，因为他有可能在等着你的头像暗了证明你睡了的时候才下线睡觉。不要让他担心。

4：只对他一个男生说晚安（wan an），以为“晚安”的含义是：wo ai ni ai ni(我爱你，爱你)，对其他的男生说“好梦”或者其他的话。如果你喜欢他,就告诉他吧，即使他拒绝，并不丢面子，因为在他的心里，会因为你的真情而非常非常感激你。

5：如果他喜欢你，要明确告诉他你的感情，喜欢就是喜欢，不喜欢就是不喜欢。千万不要怕伤害他而犹豫不决地。不要让他脆弱地等待到最后受到抛弃，因为男孩子的心一旦碎了很难很难再好起。

6：男孩子也有自己的脾气，只是因为爱你而压抑，不要总是任性,有时他们的决定也很有道理。

7：男孩子莫名地向你发脾气，那是因为他爱你，把你当成最亲的。最贴心的,最有安全感的人，千万不要和他发脾气，静静地等着,等他消气后后悔地去抱你。

8：他为你准备的东西，即使再难看，再廉价，也要去珍惜。因为那里面融汇着他整晚的思绪。

9：相信他许愿给你多么多么美好的生活，要给他鼓励，因为你的鼓励会使他创造出奇迹。

10：不要总是和他联系，问他去哪里，告诉他注意安全，你会等着他就可以。

11：不要总说"我爱你"，他会半真半笑着说烦你，但不要不说，因为有时候，他们比女孩子更需要这句。

12：他为你掉眼泪了，那么他是真的非常非常地爱你！珍惜他的每一颗眼泪，不要道歉，不要安慰，握着他的手，默默地为他擦去泪滴。

13：要信任他，他爱你，就什么都不会骗你！即使真的有欺骗，也是为你们的爱情能够永远不离不弃！

没关系

我们分了没关系
这不是你的问题
是我没那个福气
没福气却又爱上你
就算哭了没关系
这不是你的问题
痛痛快快给我一枪
我没关系

没关系

没关系

We were as one babe,
for a moment in time.
And it seemed everlasting,
that you would always be mine.

Now you want to be free,
so I'm letting you fly.
Because I know in my heart babe,
our love will never die.

I ain't gonna cry,
and I won't beg you to stay.
If you're determined to leave girl,
I will not stand in your way.
But inevitably you'll be back again,
'cause you know in your heart babe.
Our love will never end.

You'll always be a part of me,
I'm a part of you indefinitely.
Girl don't you know you can't escape me,
darling 'cause you'll always be my baby.

And we'll linger on.
Time can't erase a feeling this strong,
no way you're never gonna shake me.

If today was your last day and tomorrow was too late,
could you say goodbye to yesterday?
Would you live each moment like your last?
Leave old pictures in the past?
Donate every dime you had?

And would you call those friends you never see?
Reminisce old memories?
Would you forgive your enemies?
And would you find that one you're dreaming of?

Swear up and down to God above,
that you'd finally fall in love.

So do whatever it takes,
'cause you can't rewind a moment in this life.
Let nothing stand in your way,
'cause the hands of time are never on your side.

Not Afraid lyrics

All the crazy shit that I did,

that would be the best memories.

I just wanna let it go for the night,

that would be the best therapy for me.

It's the elephant in the room,
and we pretend that we don't see it.
It's the avalanche that looms above our heads,
and we don't believe it.

Tryin' to be perfect,
tryin' not to let you down... oh.
Honesty is honestly,

the hardest thing for me right now... yeah.

While the floors underneath our feet are crumbling,
the walls we built together tumblin'.
I still stand here holdin' up the roof,
'cause it's easier than telling the truth.

Stop ignoring that our hearts are mourning,
and let the rain come in.
Stop pretending that it's not ending,
and let the end begin.

M.O.D.A

Went to the M.O.D.A. Fashion Show at Pavilion on Tuesday with my college mates. Not much that I can say but... it was nothing but AWESOME. Love most of the designers' creations. And yes of course with good friends around, it made the trip an awesome one as well. We did took quite a couple of pictures. Good memories. :)

Carmen, me and Doris.

The tallest in class, Amy J. She's awesome, definitely.

The humourous Bruce and pretty Milky. :)

Janet's on the left, Phuna in yellow shirt and Bruce.

This will be my good buddies. Bruce in purple, Phuna in yellow, Mushie a.k.a. Marika in white, handsome Doris and Joy the cutie.

Ahh, this is my another pretty girl in our class, Shirley.

Oh... this. How should I introduce? Might as well call it the CFD1. Cha Ceai on the left, Chloe Cai Qin and my awesome queen Carmen.

Well, just look at Joy. Is she "handsome" or "cute"? I'd say, both. :D


This is NOT all in our class. Great friends makes great occasions. Starting from left will be Marika, Denise, Milky, Shirley, Bruce, Doris, Michelle, Alex (me, of course), Rino, Joy, Amy J., Janet and Phuna.

So much happenings recently. Both happiness and disappointment. And I'm not letting myself down.

It's been such a long time now since I last blog. Wasn't really free back then, and won't be free in the coming months as well. SCREW ME. Assignments, shootings and things are starting to build up really fast.

Sometimes I feel like giving up myself. Feel like there's no meaning to all these shit. And why am I here doing complains anyway? NO. I still have tons of unsettle matters to deal with. I can't just let things go unanswered. I still have people that I haven't fuck them up. I still have things to do that will make my parents proud, especially my lovely grandma.

Though we never talk much but, you are still my grandma. All I know is that your used-to-be-delicious home-cooked food is not that tasty anymore; washroom is not that clean as before; dust are starting to leave marks on the floor, since you can't clean them very well now.

I don't know whether how long my grandma can hold on. And I do know soon that she will not longer be here with us. I have to admit now that I actually feel afraid that this day will come. Well, time flies isn't it? There's nothing like, forever ever written. I'm not quite the emotional kind of guy, but in truth I don't want you to leave me.

I'm not Buddha, yet I'm not Jesus. I can't control your time to be picked up. I know I can't help, but hopefully I have the courage and strength to face that day.

你已经好久没有打电话给我，
甚至没有发短信给我，
我们，就这样了吧。

不再为你心动了。

距离拉长了思念，却阻隔了见面。
让你离我好远好远。

眼看着身边的人一个一个都有了轰轰烈烈，
我想，是该放下你了。

不要说我不甘寂寞，因为我已经寂寞了好久。
不要说我用情不专，因为你从来不属于我。
也不要说我轻言放弃，你甚至一个微小的回应都没给我.
那是因为爱，因为委屈，因为心痛…

不再留着你的短信不舍得删掉了。
不再一遍一遍的回看我们的聊天记录了。
不再眼巴巴的盯着手机期望你的电话了。
不再到处跟别人打听你的消息了。
不再向好友倾诉自己的心酸了。
因为倾诉过一次，已经代表，我决定放下你了。

你拨动了我的心弦，却不曾为我驻足。
当我以为你还在的时候，你已没有踪影。
当你回头找寻我的时候，我已开始寻找自己的天空。
亲爱的，我把最美好最美好的年华留给了你。

我，于你无愧。

亲爱的，我的青春有限，承担不起一生一世的等待。
亲爱的，让我骄傲一次，这次，是我不要你了。
我爱你的时候是真的爱你，我不爱你的时候是真的不爱你了。

等待不苦，苦的是，没有希望的等待。

如果乎远乎近的洒脱是你要的自由，那我宁愿回到自己一个人生。

我爱你，但，那只是曾经。

Love feels lost,
where is it to be found?

My heart is still here.
We have to go around and around.

In all the time,
I was loving you faithfully.
And you took my love,
And you turn around on me.

Now I don't wanna fight with you,
I got everything I can do.
Don't you leave me like that, I just want my girl back.
Let me work it out for it is over.

It's hard to let go.
Girl we went through so many things.
But for you to grow, have to go and spread your wings.
I see your tear, you searching for a pride of day.
You should have hold it through,
when you gave my love away.

Now I don't wanna fight with you,
I got everything I can do.
Had to leave it like that, but my thought I'mma back.
We tried to work it out,
but it's over.

What are we doing?
What can we see to work it out?
What are we doing?
Can we forget what love was about?
Feels like I'm losing, when it was everything to me.
And now I realize,
we're just better not together.

Girl, it's just too much for me to say,
you were to tell me that you love me.
And then to watch you walk away.
But girl the way you fight,
it's just the way.
That's way it's better this way.
No, what else to say?

Alright, I had enough! After all these while, I have finally realized that sometimes in life, being a nice guy, I mean like, "too nice" guy is bad. There's certain people that they know you are treating them really good, they'll start to take advantage of you. Only by then, you can't help it but to assist them in whatever way you think could be useful to them 'cause you've already get used to it.

I know it now. I really do. This is the third time I got played. THIS SHIT ENDS NOW. UPSET on these people who doesn't appreciate you for what you've done for them. I'm not saying that being helpful is bad. IT IS a good thing. But those who are helped SHOULD know that they would not overdo people who are helping them. FUCK IT.

That's it. There are times back then when I thought I would be happy with you. IT'S CLEAR NOW. I will not give a damn anymore because I DON'T WANT TO. It hurts. SCREW ME? FUCK YOU.

Man, so much happenings in these while. This just sucks. But SHIT. Gotta stand up and walk again. I ain't gonna give up that easily. NO WAY. Projects, assignments, events and shits. Stand aside yo! XD

難過,

是因為悶了很久,
是因為想了太多.

是心理起了作用.

在一起有點勉強,
該不該現在休了我?

不想太多,
我想一定是我,
聽錯弄錯搞錯.

拜託...

其實我早已經猜透看透不想多說,
只是我怕眼淚撐不住.

我不想拆穿你.

當作是你開的玩笑,
想通卻又再考倒我.

說散你想很久了吧?

我的認真敗給你的黑色幽默.

Bigger than my body.

Yes I'm grounded,
got my wings clipped.

I'm surrounded,
by all this pavement.

Guess I'll circle.

While I'm waiting,
for my fuse to dry.

Sometimes we fall down, can't get back up.
We're hiding behind skin that's too tough.
How come we don't say I love you enough?
'Til it's too late. It's not too late.

Our hearts are hungry for a food that won't come.
And we could make a feast from these crumbs.
And we're all staring down the barrel of a gun.
So if your life flashed before you, what would you wish you would've done?

And if your plane fell out of the skies,
who would you call with your last goodbye?
Should be so careful who we left out of our lives.
And when we long for absolution, there will be no one on the line.

LOL. Don't know what should I write for now. It's been weeks since I last wrote on my blog.

LG = Life's Good
For me, of course. x)